FMF Writing Prompt: Know

 

Five Minute Friday: Kate provides a word every Friday. The writer sets a timer for 5 minutes and writes whatever comes to mind.

KNOW

There are so many unknown things in my life (well, in everyone's lives):

• I don't know God's plan for me
• I don't know God's timeline for my husband's illness

But what I do know is that He has a plan for me and He has given us the gift of time with "the illness". One of the Mass Readings this week was Acts 16:1-10. In this scripture, Paul, Barnabas, and Timothy wanted to go to Bithynia but the Holy Spirit told them no and told them to go to Macedonia instead. They listened and they followed. They opened themselves up to hearing the Holy Spirit and they obeyed. As I read and reflected, I realized what I already knew: I don't do that nearly enough. I don't trust in God nearly enough. I feel helpless with what is now my life and I don't like it. But I know that God is tenderly calling me to Him. He is calling me to trust in Him and to allow the Holy Spirit to work in my life. I absolutely hate not having control but I know that's His way of allowing me to come completely to Him. 

Deciding to retire after the next school year was a huge decision and I didn't take it lightly at all. I didn't base it on how I feel, but rather on what our lives over the next year may look like. Not knowing is so difficult. I'm a control freak (although I've done better over the past year). How do you know when the time is right to do anything? I know the answer is to allow the Holy Spirit to guide you. Open your ears, mind, and heart to His guidance. And most importantly, to obey and follow where He leads.